"This Is What I Live For"

I've actually never realized how much I think or write this, but I really do.
So that's supposedly my mantra.
It's completely true though. I get really lazy sometimes and I don't want to go to work or all these meetings, but then I think, "This is what I live for" and off I gooooo.

I can't believe I had to be videotaped for public speaking again after all these years. This hasn't happened since being in speech and debate in high school - and even then I think I only did it once. It's interesting how sometimes you used to be SO used to doing and even SO relatively good at can seem so foreign to you once again. I think that's how I feel with public speaking now. It's like being in a comfortable place but somehow feeling uncomfortable at the same time.

I thought I got this public speaking thing down, but after watching the videotape playback of it....uh, no, not really. I still get nervous and self-conscious; even though my brain tells me I'm not, my body always reacts differently.

It was kind of amazing how the facilitator was able to analyze each of us through our public speaking just by having us give that one minute speech. She said I was very goal driven since my eye contact focused on one thing and stayed there the whole time. Apparently, what best describes me is that I have a sense of graciousness and warmth. She also said I was the perfect balance of yin and yang because of how I'm packaged in a very feminine way, but I am also very male dominant. That supposedly means I should be an attorney.

Nahhhh.



Oh, I continue to be amazed by how dynamic and efficient our internship group is.
We are AWESOME.

This is what I live for.